2011 a look back at it all.. and a peek to 2012

This year began pretty simply and like past years I had. I was just let go of a seasonal job I held at the local mall and was back to square one on the job front, but I had kept my work outs for my weight loss going all year prior expect the last two weeks. Though it wasn't hard when I was on call half the time and was only needed during thanksgiving/black Friday and days before and after Christmas. Though as the months went by I wasn't so motivated to find a replacement job and only applied here and there as it suited me.

As always I had baby sitting jobs here and there and got some funds and other things that way. I was mostly depend on my mom for all things needed and I have learnt and realized over and over again it was something I'm not very fond of because I like being on my own and finding my own way. I got to go to Disneyland here and there throughout the year when my pass gotten prior year wasn't blacked out and saw a friend I hadn't seen in a few years and that was most fun. 

Most of this year was spent working out and not being the best with my food intake so I was staying constant weight but not really changing body wise but maybe slowly toning but noting real noticeable. And hanging out when I should have been applying for jobs and getting my self in that line to get somewhere in life. I realized that I was just drifting by for most of the year and it didn't really hit me till about mid October how over it all I was and that I wanted some direction in my life but was scared to even go forward with that and not know what to do with it or perhaps ruin it.

Though in late October I buckled down and got some applications sent in before the Halloween holiday and than also some other as November started. I landed a gig at one place I went to a job fair for via a text from a friend the day before. In all this I also spent a week in both October and November on my own while my mom as out of town for work. It just strengthen the fact that I want to sure live on my own fully for a while before I settle down with anyone in my life. (Though I still feel I need to live with whom ever I do settle down with for at least a good period of time before I do as well.)

I started my new job in early November and have been working pretty steady hours since. My bad habits at my old job have pretty much disappear and I'm grateful for that. I do have my moments where I get frustrated and angry or annoyed but I vent it or let myself feel it and shake my head and move on. I think I've figured out holding it in and not just letting my emotions show about how I feel about a situation in some way is even worse than living in it constantly or saying that it sucks and turning it against my job and saying its all  the jobs fault and I hate it or what have you. I'm growing up, I'm maturing -shocker!

This year started slow but got crazy as it ended but in a good way, but also with that crazy I also got neglectful about my weight loss and well kinda my weight in general. I indulged a little (ok way ) too much and in the end result as I have learned in these past few days finally getting back on the scale since the first of the month have gained a good 13-15lbs back of what I have lost. But you know I'm not freaking out about it as much as I thought I would. I am kinda like GRRR but I also know what I need to do to fix it and get back on target and start getting better and just getting to goal. In that is half the battle, the half is actually following through with all of that.

2011 will be a life changing year even if this job doesn't last longer than perhaps April 2012 (when the exhibit I was hired for will be leaving ) Because I hope by than I will have experience and knowledge under my belt to take me anywhere I need to go and help me gain a job wherever it may be  or even keep this one I'm at that I am slowly learning to love. Even if I still have those days where I'd rather just chill at home than spend it at work on my feet.

2012 I'm hopeful for so many things, I am going to start measuring all my food intake by serving sizes (duh) and sizes and etc. to get true calories and try to stick to the healthy stuff. Whole grains, fruits veggies and lean proteins. I will indulge here and there but I have my mind on a plan that I have yet to totally finalize in planning out for all this. But I'm kicking out soda and rockstar energy drinks and fast food. The soda and fast food I let back into my life more so this year than years prior since starting my weight loss and I think it might be why I in fact have been seated with this extra weight.

I'm also gonna try and work back in my gym routine in some ways depending on my weeks schedule. I might invest in some cheap workout DVDs for days where I have time to work out but not quite the time to make it to and back to the gym for work.

Life is all about making it work for you, not letting life make you work for it. Worthwhile things are usually the ones that take the most time and effort.

I also wanna do some fun things too this coming year, though I'm not quite sure what those will be quite yet. 2012 watch out, if you are the end of the world as we know it. I'm making it worth my life.