Though lets start with the biggest thing so far this year, minus all the changes I feel right now that may have to do with the New Year Glow still not faded away. About four days after my last post I decided to cash in my chips so to speak and change my travel plans for this year, call it impulse action or sappiness brought on by the holidays. Regardless I missed my family too much to want to wait till September to see them. I had enough money saved for Boston to almost book my trip: I was waiting on Friday to show up for pay day to do so when it all changed.
Well it changed before that, but you get the picture. The more I thought about it the more I realized I didn't want to just get away or get a new perspective on life. I missed my family, I missed my home town and as always when winter rolls around I missed the snow.
I talked with my Dad the next day, and after reassuring him that I wasn't coming out of guilt or blowing off my Boston trip (something I really wanted) he said that he'd love to have me come for a visit. I booked my flight that night, and over the next couple weeks of buying things I needed (heavier coat/snow boots etc.) and things I had put off buying because of saving / Christmas Gifts my savings for Boston disappeared.
Christmas and New Years came and went and I kept getting more excited for my trip each day. It was slightly bittersweet on my last day of work prior to trip knowing when I came back a few things would be different and I knew I'd miss being there for sure.
The flights were ok, minus sitting on the wrong side on the way back. Weirdly my sciatic nerve when I sat on it via the way to Denver I had no issue, flying on the other side of the plane the way back not sitting on it about 40 mins. left of the flight I had some issue and stiffness the next day when I "didn't" sit on the side that had been pinched months prior. Go figure that one.
While I didn't do much but hang out at my Dad's with him and my brother and go build a couple snow men (creatures) and see family and see it snow one morning. I loved my trip so much, it was a break from everything I know and while the first night before bed I just wanted to be back home I knew by the time the week ended I would wish I could stay longer. And while I wish it had been a longer trip and miss them now, it was all worth it and just enough for me, for now.
I have been home since about 5pm (California time) on Saturday, and while it feels like I never left there is definitely a difference to my life then there was before last week. While at times I feel like the week didn't even happen, the pictures and my memories remind me every day and make me smile from ear to ear.
Strange to say that while I feel like the world itself hasn't changed, its me living it that has and I don't think that part of me has fully come out yet.
Right now I contemplate on saving for school to start in a years time with at least my AA in something, I haven't thought it all out yet or talked with school counselors to see my plan of attack yet. I also think of saving as much as I can period, but also in chance to still do my Boston trip this year but pushed back few months to our slowest time of the year at work in September. I have put so much thought into that trip before and what I wanted to do and looked at so many places on line and where I wanted to visit and see. My heart still says it needs to go, just to experience what Massachusetts offers.
Part of me wants to save for both: school and that trip, but I'm not entirely sure its possible. Though part of me things that it could be if I did it right. This 2015 seems to hold so much more to offer than I remember any other year before, and like I said it might be because I left on the fourth and never really dug into the New Year in my life that I have so far set up for myself, but ya know what 365 days can say a lot if your willing to explore them.
So here's to the other 350 days left in the year, no matter what I do or don't do lets make the most of them.
LOVED this post so much! you just sound so happy and hopeful! And it's amazing! I'm so glad you were able to go to Colorado and see your family and feel refreshed! You're amazing and it already seems like you're accomplishing so much in 2015!
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