Before (270)
After *now* (344)
I have so many thoughts about this all running around in my head, that till I can get it straight all I can really do is post the evidence so to speak about all that's gone on.
I lost 50-60lbs going from 312.4 to 250 at my lightest... slowly but surely these last two years I've gained all that back plus a good 20-30 more lbs. I feel it and I know the difference and I hate the difficulty it gives me and the insecurities it causes. I want to get better at it all I wanna say I wanna be this weight or that weight or be back where I was when I first started to lose weight. But regardless of numbers or what have you seriously all I want is to finally be healthy. I wanna talk about a lot things when it comes to weight loss, mine and just the subject in general but right now this is all I've got till I can get my thoughts together about it all.
I need to change.. I'm only 25 I got the rest of my life ahead of me or I will (more so) if I fix this.
I know how you feel! I'm in the same boat! I started weight watchers a couple weeks ago. I've lost some weight but it seems like such a slow moving process and its hard. I'm starting to get discouraged. Why is it so hard!? Regardless of your weight you are beautiful. I love all of those photos but I 100% relate to you and how you are feeling right now because its how I am feeling too. Looking forward to reading more xoxo
ReplyDeleteThanks and yea it definitely is a slow moving process, and life seems to over come it more times then not. And thank you so much for your kind words, I know part of all this is trying to disconnect the words fat and ugly or even slightly heavy and unattractive that I feel this world has some how made use feel... but more about all that in my next post that will come sooner then you think :)
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