What If I Had Done Things Differently?

Life in general has many different forks in the road, each day we make a decision on the the so called "prong" we choose to go out on that leads us along in life. The good, the bad, the even ugly parts of life come along through all this. In this though, in moment you see yourself and your still you, no matter what happens. Perhaps a little altered or jaded by the situation or experience, but still you in a nut shell that never changes.

So maybe in that we are meant to be where were at in life, even if its not all rainbows and butterflies. Most times in life the only way to get what you want is to go after it like a bull going after that red cape in the ring. Yes we will fall, and yes we will have set backs but the only way failure becomes the answer is when you stop trying or stop looking for answers to help when the ones you've tired don't work.

                            

In reference to last post, my letting myself indulge to kill the want didn't work out so well. As I imagined the wants for other things came and so did my lack of portion control. I've made myself in the process sick over the stuff I've eaten. In that same instance though I learnt, my tolerance for these things no longer is the same. I taste things different I feel the reaction to their makeup (chemicals) in my body differently. So, I did learn something and it did help and it did set me back, but I have not fail because of it.  I've learnt soda isn't all its cracked up to be, and neither or my urges or taste for rockstars energy drinks anymore.

Cake is too sweet, and milk chocolate is almost off putting in taste compared to dark chocolate anymore. I start to crave vegetables and fruits when I eat too much junk, I really feel and realize its not my mood that I'm miserable after I eat that junk/crap its my body saying: "WHAT THE CRAP DID YOU GIVE ME!" 

I'm also in the process of probably giving up coffee for tea (expect for those Holiday drinks at Starbucks, can you say: pumpkin spice, gingerbread and peppermint mocha latte HELLO!) and I don't know how this will go, but I've always loved coffee with a cookie(or two) after dinner than in the morning, because I've never felt any real effect of it. Though maybe like soda once its out of my system for awhile with all the other sugary stuff I'll feel the difference upon drinking it again one day. But for now I'll probably have it once or twice more till my current creamer is gone, but than off to tea land it is. With our new bought kettle that whistles and everything.

I'm learning a lot of stuff through my weight loss and in my life and stuff in general lately. I feel like I'm on the edge of something amazing, but I don't want to push it out there too fast or even try to guess at what is. I want to work at what I know needs to be done to help me along in life and just go from there right now. I'm not sure at all how it will all turn out or where I'll be in a month or so from now, but hey life is full of surprises. And man do I want a good one.