It's been forever and a day since I wrote anything in here and its due to sheer laziness. Lately though it seems whenever I even attempt to write something, my thoughts of what to say and how to say it all come at me like a herd of galloping stampeding horses to the front of my mind and finger tips and my thoughts get all jumbled and I get lost in what I even wanna write about. Than I say forget it because suddenly something else sounds better, most of the time sleep since I like writing in late afternoon to late at night/ early in the morning really type of deal. And this might not be the greatest of posts because now that my face mask has been washed away; what kept me up thinking while it dried and made me want to write is now done I'm seriously starting to doze.
Lets just state what is happening and leave any motivational inspiration stuff to another more awake me to post.
Tomorrow will mark one year of employment at my current job, whoot whoot! I'm happy for that and glad I finally feel like I have something going of me.
Um, I did go ahead and purchase my KIA soul after test driving it back just before September, love it! Not the payments mind you but the factor that it's my baby and I'm paying for it (minus insurance lol) I'm excited for that.
I think that's the only good news right now...so
I'm pretty much back at my heaviest weight of all, prior to weight loss plus probably 10-15 extra pounds. I seriously am so done being over weight. Feeling fat and just disgusting and tired because, it doesn't make you wanna go work out even if you know its a simple change of clothes and drive to the gym, or heck walk over to my complex gym too. Cardio room with a few treadmills and etc and a weight room of four/five machines. Plus heck I have Wii fit and Wii zumba... yea know the more I write this I realize how lazy I "REALLY" am.
Plus most of my clothes don't fit anymore, like at all. Pretty much mostly pants since for the most part I tend to buy my shirts on the bigger sizes just because I do have a bigger chest/thicker arms and not so short of a torso, plus so we don't have shrinkage issue that sometimes drying and washing do cause. Though I didn't blame the washer and drying for the my clothes becoming too small this time like the last. I knew and went back and forth about changing and than in the end just let the number go up and watch it do so when I weighed myself in.
I hate being out of breath doing the simplest I hate how bad my skin is lately I don't like feeling like a bag of lumpy potatoes, and I swear since my boobs grew with the weight they seem to blend in or start to with my stomach, which has gained but not as much as my thighs/hips and butt.
I keep telling myself OK today, or OK this week or OK for sure doing this on Friday or whatever. Hasn't happened.
Weirdly out of everything in my life I have really only two good news things to post and one major bad one, everything else is kinda on the neutral side of things.
Well, it's short and I'll for sure promise a better post next time but I need to at least vent where I'm at right now to get some of the raging horses out of my mind to clearly think better, if nothing else.
