Is it really almost may? Am I really almost Twenty-Four years old? Did I really gain back more than half the weight I lost? Do I already regret chopping my hair off ? Do I need to change a few things?
...Answers are..
Yes, it is almost may and I will be 24 years old in two weeks from today, and I did gain 30 of the 50lbs I lost back in these last couple months, and yes and no on the hair. I miss the length I had and want it back but I'd forever wonder about this cut till I did it.
And last but not least, yes I need to change a few things. Let's start with some silly things before we dive into some seriousness of things that really do need to be changed.
I need to start wearing sunscreen, like every day. It was one of my things to wear it every day as a new years resolution and esp on sunny hot days. I believe yesterday was the one true day I used sun screen (though it was the spray on kind) on all area's of my body that were out in sun, not covered by clothes. Though as we know that doesnt stop the sun exposure, so I need to start daily applying before heading out the door, esp on hot days as these summer months come in.
I need to brush my teeth more often, this sounds totally gross I know. But its more about I usually only brush them at night before bed since I lag on drinking my coffee till last minute most mornings and totally space it as I leave for work. Maybe I need to buy more of those this little tooth brush thingys I had that have the bead of tooth paste in them again. (Or just brush them before I leave haha)
I need to read more, I have a couple of my own (esp the last three harry potter books) and a good at least seven I borrowed from a friend almost three years ago I think now that I need to read and return, sorry friend.
I need to stick to one hair color dye only if and when (more and likely the latter) I start to dye it again. I think I have that color and I also need to stick to the leave in coniditioners and deep conditioners I put in my hair when it was longer, they helped alot and I think they'll keep it the best shape it can be as it grows out. (Plus, I doubt I'll ever go shorter than shoulder length ever again -aka as long as I can put it in a ponytail-)
Now seriously, I need to get back into a gym routine around my work schedule and not only that I need to start eating better. Less junk food and more fresh fruits/veggies and etc. I need to do this not just for physical changes it gives and self esteem issues I have when I don't but also for mental changes as well. It may sound like common sense but I've realized as I have let myself eat crappy food my mentally tends to be more on the crappy side. So I need to change that.
This is for some vanity thing and also for some health thing as well. I need my health to live my life and I need to feel good about myself to have the confience to have the best life. My life, forget what others may think or say they'll say it either way and if I aint hurting no one than so be it.
Only life I got gotta live it and not just let it live for me while I simply just exist.
